November 12, 2009
So, yesterday I took a trek down to the University of Montevallo to register for classes for the spring. As I rode down there I kept thinking, “Am I really doing this?” For the past three or four years we’ve been working towards moving to Denver, that was the plan. I know I’ve said all this before but I suppose it’s still sinking in for me. If I’m really honest, it’s mostly pride that gets me down. I did well in college (a major change from high school) and my friends that also did well at Southeastern have gone off to terrific schools, most ended up at their dream schools. Now, in truth, Denver Seminary wasn’t my dream school but it was really high up there (Rosemead was their dream but we weren’t moving to California…). Montevallo wasn’t even on the radar. As time has gone on, I’ve become really excited about Montevallo. I don’t know how the classes will be and what the experience will be like but I didn’t know any of that about SEBC either. I was talking to Lynn Malick about it and she pointed out that I’ll get out whatever I put in to any graduate program and I like school so I’m sure I’ll get the most out of it. Also, all my friends that went to their dream schools want to be professors so when they go out looking for a job, where they went to school REALLY matters. Now, where I go to school does matter in terms of the education I get but at the end of the day, as long as it’s CACREP accredited, I can get my counseling license and that’s the whole point.
Anyhow, long story short, I registered. It was a pretty simple process, I was only there for about 15 minutes. My advisor actually laid out my whole degree plan – I’ll graduate August 2012 unless I bump up to full-time at some point. I don’t know if I’ll ever go full-time, all of their classes meet at night from 5-9. A major reason he laid out my whole program was due to the fact that next fall it’s going from a 48 hour program to a 60 hour program. For a part-time student that would add at least two more semesters. I’m glad I got in now!
I just can’t believe that I’m for real going to start grad school in just a couple of months. I left so excited, I love school, I love learning and I’m just thrilled that I’m getting closer to being a counselor.
As for the change of plans, I was reading the book of James the other day and I came across this verse, “Come now, you who say, ‘Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit’ – et you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, ‘If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.’ As it is , you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.” James 4:13-16. Now, as we worked towards Denver I think we really were trying to seek the Lord’s will but I still have to confess how hard I’ve clung to it in spite of the Lord’s direction elsewhere. How humbling to see that planning is prideful when it is separated from God’s will. It’s even more humbling that I’m more concerned with what others will think rather than being at peace with where the Lord has me. Hmm…